Feeling Lost

Hello everyone,

Ever since my mom's passing, my life has not been the same. Grief has a way of hitting you in a way that you least expect. My mom was my world. For as young as I can remember, I did everything in my life to help my mom. I grew up seeing my mother struggling and working extremely hard to take care of her children and from a very young age, all I wanted to do was to be in a better place and position in life so that I could give my mom the best life I could afford. I feel like life has robbed me of that opportunity, even though I have been giving her my best. It's as though, just as my life is to make a turning point for the better, my world was turned upside down with my mom's passing. April 25, 2025, will be a day forever etched in my mind. I cannot fathom nor comprehend why God took my mom, but I do hope that once day, I will get a grip of this grief, and I will understand the reason why.

I am still feeling so lost ever since that day. Some days I think I am dreaming but I know that I have to carry on with life because my mom would not want me to be eternally stricken with grief.

I am doing my best to cope and take care of my son, but deep down, this is the greatest lost that I have ever experienced.

I love my mom so much and though I spent her last moments with her... had the last conversation, share the last meal... I have been left so broken... so lost... wishing I had one more day... one more week... one more month... one more year with my mom.

I miss you Mom! You will be forever in my heart. Love Tamara, you last baby girl (daughter)